Choices
Healer Kafilan addressed the core. **I'm sorry Uniban, it didn't work. Your testes were as irradiated as the rest of your body.**
**It was only to be expected Healer. Thank you for trying.** The later "voice" came from the smoky-gray pillar that dominated the small chamber. Light softly played though the interior.
Kafilan sighed. **I don't like to disappoint people. You have had more than your share disappointments lately.**
**I am here, I am still sensate. I have opportunities.**
**You are adapting to this this remarkably well.**
**I must make the adjustment or die Healer. I took this drastic plan because I am not ready to die.**
**Good luck with your further training.**
**Thank you Healer.**
Kafilan walked away from the computer core of the USS Seeker. They had made medical history in transferring a biological to a computer core, but what had they really done?
Uniban checked the ship's functions for the fifth time that second. He would have liked to join the others in the sleeping room, but there was no male Ane bio in the ship. He was not ready to try out a female, even to get a cuddle, and he could really use a cuddle.
Fiealan the Questing's Computer Officer "moved" into his space. **Do we have to get physical about it?**
**Oh, hi Fiealan. Isn't physical the whole idea?**
**There are levels of physical Uniban. Here we make our own environment.**
**Then why the bios?**
**Because while we can make an environment here, it doesn't translate 'out there' and yes cuddles are nice. Bios are for physical interact with the other members of our culture. We will get you one as soon as possible.**
**Am I alive?**
**Answer you own question, do you feel alive?**
**I feel little right now. I am aware of the ship yes, but the things I expect to feel, nothing, an emptiness. It hurts.**
Fiealan moved closer, she constructed an environment about them natural to their kind. Uniban remained amorphous. **Uniban, we didn't expect it to be easy for you. You have done the hard part, transition is accomplished. Pull your icon together, reclaim your aspect. Is self the body only?**
**I didn't now know how much it was the body, until I didn't have one.**
**Is it really?**
**Yes, oh yes. This absence of pain is nearly unbearable. Pain tells us we are alive as equally as does pleasure. I have nothingness and it fails to hurt.**
**Make a somethingness. Remember yourself and live it.**
**Help me...I don't know how.**
Fiealan joined with Uniban and helped him remember himself. Slowly he came together in the reality she had made.
Uniban twitched an ear, stretched his neck. **It feels, but how real is it?**
**As real as it needs to be in this space.**
Uniban lifted his front leg. He bit it. **Ow!**
**Real enough?**
**How?**
**Question later, enjoy now.**
**By questions do we live.**
Fiealan flipped an ear at him. **You choose your moments to get axiomatic at me. The space we exist in is defined by ourselves alone. What we will in the space that engineers call cyberspace, is to the RI as real as meatspace. This is the natural world, meatspace is someplace you visit. Is this so different than the All? Do we not build such places in our minds?**
**Yes, but I miss meatspace. I've never known this.**
**Meatspace is where you grew up. What Elathlan has chosen scares me, giving up cyberspace to live in meatspace all the time? Having to go through childhood again. It is the great unknown. Death I understand, but taking the Birth?** She shuddered from nose to tail.
Uniban's ears popped up. **The Birth! I could go back.**
Fiealan nibbled lightly at his neck. **Yes, we could arrange that option, but like Elathlan, you would have to wait until we get home.**
**I know.** He shuddered. **I can go back, if it is unbearable, I can go back.**
She looked deep into his eyes. **Does that help you endure?**
**Yes, yes it does. An anchor I can grasp. Choices are better than no choices. Even if one never takes the choice.**
She rubbed against him twining necks. **I would choose to have a male mate with me.**
He cocked his head and leaned into her advance. **I can make that choice.**
Choices -- Garry Stahl, December 2004
A minor event in The Word of the Builders looked at in a bit more detail. Uniban goes on to be the Computer Officer of the USS Hadrian. Which is featured in A Journey of lessons and Inic. Both by my Wife Susan.
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Travelin' Blues
The two sat on the stage of the old club, a single light shared between the two as shadows chased each other around the empty room.
Sweet Pea was old. His face lined with care, his hair white and thinning. His ancient hands with their over-sized knuckles caressed the smooth darkened brass of the cornet. He lifted the instrument to his lips and played.
Mournful, low, and aching the notes were squeezed from the horn. He hunched around the instrument eyes squeezed shut, each note pushed from the bell as if it cost him blood.
Taraban sat beside him, soft mahogany fur with his black mane cascading down the arched neck. He filled his throat and sang sweet pain, a counterpoint to the horn in tenor flute cascaded in triplets around the heavier notes, and filled the spaces between them. Together the sound slithered 'round the old chairs and under the empty tables. It crouched between the brick walls and tapped at the old tin ceiling.
They played and sang to an empty room, audience and musicians in one. Old ghosts gathered 'round the tables and jostled for space at the bar. They stared out from the gloom and smiled.
Hours latter Sweet Pea gently wiped down the horn as he packed it away. Taraban watched the careful habits of the old Master.
**Questing has been called out Sweet Pea.**
The Old man sighed. "I suppose you will be going."
**It is my chosen place.**
"You will be missed my friend. We lost a great artist when you decided to be a starship captain, and not a blues singer."
**Flatterer. Am I all that now?**
"You are to me. Most of all, you are a good friend." Sweet Pea hugged Taraban, ending with Taraban's head in his hands. "You take care of yourself out there."
**I will give it my best. I am rather fond of me.**
"Where are you heading?"
**Someplace new, the underside of the Klingon Empire. Vice Admiral Hailey wants an experienced manta crew at STB-600 to aid in training his new crews. Starfleet picked us.**
"I am going to miss you."
**Why don't you get a group together and tour with Fuzzy?**
"Well, it wouldn't be my buddy Taraban, but that is an idea I do need to look into."
**I'll put in a good word for you. We are also putting together another group to work out of Oz, and one to work the frontier as well.**
"Oz? Where is Oz?"
**Where I am going.**
"Well shut my mouth. I'll just see if I can dig up a couple of friends that want to shake the dust of this old world from their heels and see the stars."
**I've got a week. I'll take you with me.**
"Taraban ol' buddy, you have a deal."
Travelin' Blues -- Garry Stahl, February 2005.
Everyone needs a hobby and Taraban hasn't been sitting idle waiting for the next story. It seems he has been traveling Earth looking for the real music.
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Archeology
Another arrowhead. The Lieutenant picked it up out of the dirt.
She rubbed it off on her sleeve and turned it over in her hands. The
ruins were lousy with the things. She looked at said ruins as they
faded off up into the hills. Down here at the base of the hill is where
all the arrowheads where, right next to the crumbling tower of
artificial stone.
The Chief came up beside her. "Lieutenant, the base camp is
finished. What do we start on next?"
She turned to the Chief. "Start the survey crews. Lets get the
basic geophysics done before nightfall." She flipped the arrowhead to
the Chief. "Chief, what do you think they were for?"
He turned the object over in his hands. "Well, I would say a
primitive weapon, but they are not primitive and clearly not balanced as
weapons."
"Hopefully we will find some solid records in the ruins. What is
left of the computers in orbit is worthless. This city does appear to
be the ground control center for the space bore activity."
"Yes, the motifs in the largest remaining stations and the motifs
here do match. As well as matching ruins all over this sector of the
Galaxy. If any spot is it, this is it."
The Chief tossed the arrowhead back into the dirt. "So, we're
finally going to get some answers as to what 'Starfleet' was."
Archeology -- Garry Stahl, July 2005
I suppose this is a postscript to Star Trek at large. "And this too shall pass."
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